I went to the sleep doctor yesterday... apparently, I definitely have some sort of sleep disorder. It could be narcolepsy, sleep apnea (unlikely, but still possible), or a fancy name for Unknown Sleep Disorder.
Now, when I think of narcolepsy, this is what jumps into my head:
But that's close to what I've been experiencing... the sudden, uncontrollable urge to sleep. I can fight it with the right combination of physical activity, mental activity, and general "upbeat" atmosphere (I find that music with a good, moving beat and no lyrics helps), but there's only so long I can fight it without consequences - I begin to fall apart. My body begins to give out - I get shaky; I get nauseous; the pain increases. My mind stops being able to function: words are lost, concentration shattered.
I need to sleep.
And I sleep anywhere from 10 minutes to 6 hours.
Sometimes all day.
It's devastating.
And anything I do can have lasting effects - days where I cannot do anything but nap and lie around. I am hoping to try a 5k this weekend just to try. It'll be the slowest I've ever done, but I will have done it. That's the plan at least. I need to prove to myself that I can be something other than this ghost of myself and that yes, I will get back to where I was physically.
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